Too busy to see myself

Posted: August 4, 2011 in personal, social justice, Uncategorized
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Life has been interesting since my last post. I spent a week without looking at TV and not looking at Facebook or email. I also did took a summer intensive class on Advocacy for Social Justice. I have learned/re-learned a few things since then:

1. Life without media is hard. As much as I was away from TV and the internet I could not escape watching movies. I also realize most of my life is online or in my cpu. Sadly I acknowledge that I spend too much time sitting at my laptop.

2. I also came to the realization that as much as I needed to slow down in order to see others clearly I needed to slow down in order to see myself clearly. During the time that I wasn’t on Facebook friending and posting or responding to emails or surfing the web for the latest news I took a long hard look in the mirror and to be honest I did not like what I saw. I had become so judgmental and anxious. I could not treat others with compassion and grace because I had none for myself. I became acquainted with my own self hatred and rejection and the depths of my dysfunction. This was beginning to seep out in my sermons, personal interactions, and even in some of my recent blog posts.

3. All of that being said I also realized there is a better way to live. A better way to see myself and consequently a better way to see others. My commitment is to live a life of love and for the past year or so I have let that commitment slip. What is spurring me on in these endeavors? Continuing to allow God to speak to me in silence and solitude and getting a life outside of media (sunshine, gardening, hiking).

4. This will totally affect the content of this blog. I realize that I have spoken on some controversial topics regarding race and ethnicity and I am still committed to writing about those things but 1) I will address these issues with a more loving and gracious spirit and 2) I will address broader issues of loving the Other, diversity, gender, class, and sexuality. I see how much all these things are interwoven and how much all these things represent injustice not to one particular group but to humanity as a whole. As Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. said “Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere”. I would add that if we do not deal with injustice in ourselves we are bound to pass it on to others.

  1. …and it goes both directions, fighting injustice anywhere, threatens injustice everywhere!

    y’know, I struggle with the same things in seeking to live a life of love, and I’ve come to the conclusion I still need a Saviour, because it’s nigh impossible to Do Justice and still Love Mercy unless I’m walking in humility with my God…


  2. You my comrade are a genius

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