Posts Tagged ‘brokenness’

In our time of winding down as a church we have been going through the principles outlined in the Emotionally Healthy Church in order to process and interpret what God is doing and has been doing in our lives in relation to our decision to close. The first principle of Looking Beneath the Surface unearthed the painful reality of our condition as a church. The second principle, Breaking the Power of the Past focused on our history as a local church and how that has affected us up to now and how to break free from the negative effects of that in the future. Now we turn to the third principle…Living in brokeness and vulnerability. This one is going to hurt.

Why does it hurt? Because closing hurts. Because honesty hurts. Because alot of times it hurts even more to admit that you are hurt. One of the things that closing brings up is the fact that we could not do it. We failed. We are broken and we do not have what it takes. This is the truth. The other side of that is God did not fail. He is not broken. He has what it takes.

During the time after we shared the decision to close with the rest of the church I began to read Henri Nouwen’s Life of the Beloved and he divides the spiritual life into four movements: taken, blessed, broken, and given. This is all based on Jesus’ words and actions during the Last Supper and our participation in the eucharist. One of the things that stood out to me is that Jesus broke the bread which he called his body. As part of the body of Christ I can expect to be broken. The good thing is that the body of Christ does not consist of only me as an individual or one local church. The body of Christ is all of the church in every place throughout the ages. It means that my brokenness does not stop the purposes of God. My brokenness is designed to lead me and to lead the entire church into the next movement of spiritual life-being given to the world. I believe that this close is a good thing. It hurts and it is painful but God has a plan that is much bigger than the maintenance of one local church or one pastor’s ego.

Last spring I took a class called the Making of Global Christianity. What stood out to me about that class is that the church has not always been the church triumphant. The church has also been the church persecuted. One thing people do not realize which Philip Jenkins has so insightfully pointed out in the Lost History of Christianity is that the church is not a solely European phenomenon. The church was a major force from Syria to China. What happened? Persecution, failure, brokeness. It was a brutal reminder that no church is meant to last forever and that every church whether it is declining or closing or bursting out at the seams is in need of God